My World - My Light
(Lisa has kindly given her permission for her
poem and story to be published. God Bless.)
What is your name : Lisa-Jayne Fowler
What is your e-mail address: jravenshaw AT aol.com (I don't normally display e-mail addresses but if you would like to send Lisa some good wishes, I know she won't mind)
Who do you want the poem written for: Ally - my sister, my world, my life
Why do you
want the poem written: My Sister was and still is my inspiration. She
was taken very quickly from us last Friday, 23rd April 04. She went into
hospital three weeks ago with pneumonia. One week later she rang me to tell
me that she had been diagnosed with Cancer. I had one hours sleep that night
and cried from when she told me for two whole days. One week later we were
told that she had Primary Lung Cancer and Secondary Liver Cancer - within the
week she was moved to the Sue Ryder Care Home where she passed within 48
hours. She was my tower of strength. When we lost our mum only five years
ago - she became my sister, my best friend, my mum all rolled into one. I
told her everything and shared everything with her. At the birth of my first
child Amy 6 years ago she was the first person with half an hour to come to
the hospital. She has always been there for me. She has been 'My Constant'
for my 38 years. We lost Ally when she was only 47 years old. She was a very
strong lady, she loved life, she always put herself first before anyone and
anything. She loved the outdoors and shared 4 horses with my niece. Her
husband Steve, her daughter Vicky and son Adam were her life. Horses were her
passion. Last Christmas she was given a Pedigree cat by her husband - earlier
this year 'Mouse' (her cat) went missing and she grieved for her until she
returned some 4 days later.
My Sister was a very brave and courageous lady - even when we could see the Cancer giving her extreme pain - she made no fuss. She was beautiful, funny, giving, loving, kind, she listened, she loved and was loved by all that knew her. She was warm and caring. Although taken early from us only last Friday - I know that she is now with my mum and together they continue to watch over us. I love and miss her so very much. She is and continues to be my World.
What are the key messages you would like to send: I loved and love you. I miss you. You are at peace now with no pain and you are with mum. I was not frightened of death - I was frightened of losing you as a person. I miss your inner spirit, your strength, your love and your smell. I miss your voice. I cry tears of my love for you as my friend, my strength and my sister. You will be forever in my heart, my dreams, my hopes, my aspirations. Your spirit lives on forever within me.
Do you have any other comments or thoughts: Even though your passing has only been a few days. I still want to pick up the telephone and hear your voice. I still want to see you come into my house and kick off your horse-riding boots and smell of you. I still hear you, see you, smell you. You were and still are a beautiful person. You live behind you a legacy of love, hope, dreams. You were beautiful.
What style of poem would you prefer (happy, sad, romantic etc.): Happy and Sad
Please choose which package you would prefer: Deluxe
Do you have any last comments or thoughts: I know that love lasts forever. I think of my Sister - I think of her happiness, her smile, her eyes lit up. My two babies Amy aged 6 and Ben aged 4 will miss you so very much. You were always so generous with your affection and kindness and time. Your Spirit is My Spirit. Thank you for always being you.